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| I'm sitting here at 1:45 at night, and all I can think about is how lame I am. I have had like zero life this semester; all I can think about is school. I guess I'm doing OK. But I don't have a life. I've never been this serious about studies before, and I don't know what has possessed me.
OK, so I lie. I have always been intense studier. But it hasn't consumed me.
I've also been very lonely. I think it was hard coming up here from being in Jacksonville and then being at home for a while. I can't stand the constant switching of people that I see. I'm very, very happy with my roomies and Dan and Marlyn and everyone, but I feel like something else is missing. And I'm really, really tired ALL of the time. Every time I sit down I fall asleep. I even fell asleep on a table at the LGBT office today. I slept in the office for TWO hours.
I also thought for the first time in a while about another person today. He had admitted that he liked me in Florida, and it kind of creeped me out. Really, it wasn't like I wasn't used to being creeped out, I mean, I was in Florida. But he's gone in Grenada now, and I'll be in Burkina Faso later and now I worry that he's going to be upset, and I don't want that; I just want to be friends.
Hypochondria, which I thought was completely gone, is also coming back to me for some reason. I know it's hypochondria, but I can't understand why it was gone for a while.
I have a lot of things I need to get in to gear.
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| I keep worrying about my hirability slash research ability while I sit
idly unemployed. I was offered a tour of PricewaterhouseCoopers
(Chicago) by a friend of mine. I worry she was disenfranchized
because I was like, "Well, look this will be really expensive for me to
visit, but I'd hate to pass up an opportunity, so we'll make things
work. But I need to make sure that they'll accept my résumé,
unlike last year, becaue I'm not an accounting major." I keep
worrying that even with my experience at Vistakon, no one will bother
to hire me. Katherine Cieko has mentioned that I have this huge
fear and feel a need to go into Corporate America, even though I know
I'll hate it and not like myself and the bully I've become. Can I
be saved?
I actually really would prefer Grad School in Economics, which is why I asked a
former professor of mine to sponsor an Econ 399 research paper during
Spring 2007 (next year). I feel totally dumb. I have no
idea where to begin even on coming up with a topic. I emailed her
for some guidance. I'm like appx., "I'm sort of interested in
development economics, but I need some help getting out of a rut.
Do you recommend any journals that would help me begin to come up with
a topic?" etc... Am I a dumbass for emailing her?!?!?! Or am I doing the right thing!??!
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| I found a review of my former high school. I agree with it wholehartedly:
http://www.greatschools.net/modperl/parents/il/pc/4635/
3 stars (out of 5)
"The math, upper-level science, and upper-level English instructors at
Mater Dei are excellent.
The social studies department is not very good
because incompetent coaches make up the
history faculty. The Religious
education department does little to challenge students to better
understand and deepen their knowledge of Catholicism. If your child is
into sports, he will
enjoy Mater Dei. However, the music, art, and
theater programs are not as well-supported.
About half of the students
at Mater Dei attend because it has a 'college prep' cirriculum. Yet
AP
classes are in their first years of being offered, despite the fact
that the school has been
around for 50 years. Fortunately, parents are
very involved at Mater Dei. If you live in Clinton
County, this may be
the best school for your child. Yet the academics and programs at Mater
Dei have lots of room for improvement."
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| GET ME OUT OF FLORRRIDAA!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I
MISS MY FRIENDS!
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| Ok, so I was pissy that I had to take a non-Western. Now I'm
totally cool with it. Africa is awesome. And I have
to say, this is the funniest moment in African
history.
For centuries (900-1700), Ethiopian
Christians and the Adal (Ethiopian) Muslims fought tooth and nail for a
small part of land in the south. It was really dumb (I think,
of course you can disagree...I'm putting this in crude terms), and
basically led nowhere. And of course, Europe (Portugal) and
Arabia (Ottoman Turkey) got involved to try to promote their
religion. But you know what broke up the 800-year
squabble? COW FARMERS! Yep, peaceful cow-herders
from South of Ethiopia just decided to come in. They had to
fight a little, but because Ethiopia was so war-torn, they basically
just had to move in. And when the Christians and Muslims were
upset, they just converted to whatever religion they needed to convert
to, and everyone was happy.
One up for the cow
farmers...way to go.
See attachment for visual
explanation:
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